There are no backsies in life, so if life gives you lemons (or breast cancer) laugh in its face and move forward.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Stop Crowding Me Already
"I have a little shadow that goes in and out with me,
And what can be the use of him is more than I can see."
(Robert Lewis Stevenson, A Child's Garden of Verses
Pollyanna has given me the slip this week. I've cried hot, angry tears, aching inside from the things I cannot change. I thought the surgery and recovery were going to be the worst part of this whole ordeal, but I was wrong. I have fucking, stupid cancer, and it's taken over a part of me, edging something else out of its way. Wonder when I'll figure out what got pushed out of the way to make room for it?
Physically, though, I feel great. There is still pulling and some pain along the tummy tuck incision, but I can stand upright MOST of the time. The nipple surgery never caused any pain, other than the horrifically itchy tape episode. In fact, I have set a goal for myself to return to Zumba at 6 weeks post-tram, which would be this week, and I feel pretty optimistic that I will be able to do it. Maybe not do it WELL, but I'm willing to give it a somewhat feeble try.
One bright note: the period from HELL may have finally ended. 37 days of it. 37 days. THIRRRRRRRTYYYYY-SEEEEEEEEEEEVENNNNNNNNNN!!!!! I deserve a reward.
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